A DOLL DOES IT ALL AGAIN.

While I was in college, I had fallen into a spiral brought on from an identity crisis. My body and mind had felt sickeningly detached and I found it hard to see myself when looking in the mirror.

To begin healing from this and understanding what my changing sense of self may need to have peace, I illustrated what I felt abstractly looked like me. How would my sense of self at the time manifest if taken out of my body and given the impossible means to materialize on its own terms.

These 2 works were the siblings of my results.

Speaking in regards to the first piece. I had been very wrapped up in pursuing that more simplistic, animation ready style of drawing, that I had feared I’d forgotten how to produce my faux 3d style which furthered my existentially detached feelings. This piece was in a way, proof to myself that I could still do that.

Even if it’s not quite as smooth as my other works within this style.

The second piece is something I have less to speak about, as it was made extra thoughtlessly. I didn’t allow myself to ponder what end results I could get, I just painted. It’s an interesting piece in that way.

Nonsense, but nonsense that helped me make sense of myself.